Fathers Day 2016 & thoughts from/about me Heart...

With Fathers day this year me heart is full...
Grateful that i have a good Father...
thankful that i tried to be a good Father...
Grateful that Levi is also a Father and growing...
being a Father makes us all different people...
it was and is a lot of work... but makes us all better people.

 James G. Costigan, my Father...
Maggie, my sister...
me, 8 years old, 1954
moving to California, the land of my upbringing, an eastern born child but a western raised child to an adult.
A product of my parents with a western outlook on life. The west is the best i believe. The wide open space of the west made for a  great expansion of ideas and greater possibilities that have shaped my life into who and what i am.

Me and Levi, Escalante, Utah May 1999. Me at age 53 and Levi a cool 13... me trying to be the best i could, sometimes i wish for a do-over, but then he would not be who he is now. Levi has really turned out to be a good son/person in spite of what i did to/with him.
He has departed the small Utah town we raised him in and is now living and working in Cedar City, Utah.

This is Levi, now 30, with his daughter my granddaughter Layla at 3, she is going to be a head turner when she gets older... i hope  that i taught him well because he is going to have his hands full.
Wow thats four generations right there...
Oh and of course there is Sarah Rose... my daughter and Levi's big sister now 36 and her two daughters Ruby Mersadies and Alexis Ann.
They also live in Cedar City.
Not real far away but none the less i don't see them all near enough.

Then there is still me now at 69 trying to figure out what i want to be when i grow-up or get old whichever comes first.
i write everyday, something, work most days, make images everyday, read the the scriptures everyday, to give the day a leg up, draw and scribble, color inside, but mostly outside the lines, and try to call it ArT...
Hang some of it on the wall and get bored with it and take it down when i don't "see" it no more!!
Have come to believe that my ArT is just for me... it's kept me mostly sane, with a few slips here and there along the way, it's always been fun making marks on clay or paper and coming back to look at it all! It's nothing but a signpost to show me where i have come from... cause i sure don't know where i am going.

Down but not out of the game yet...                                                   June 2016

Sill more tunnels to pass through with only a peek as to what's on the other side... faith keeps me moving forward... i have always been a builder of some thing or another so each time i travel out of town i stop and have lunch while watching the work progress on the Cedar City Temple...

Lots of doctors to see in the coming weeks as me old HEart is wearing down and i have to have me batteries replaced in the ICD and hearing devices... never had many toys as a child that needed batteries but now i need them to keep me hearing and beating.

Getting old is sure a new education process, i am grateful for doctors who learned it and can explain

it in terms i can understand, mostly !  Cheers to the journey and will be back with more as the results come in.

                                                                                    !! CHEERS !!