No driving this year... we are grandma's house.

We be staying HOME this year for "the" holiday.

Be still.    Think.    Draw.     Meditate.

!! KILL YOUR TELEVISION  !!

Creativity rarely comes ex nihilo...

Latin term meaning "Out of nothing".

Fill your mind with beautiful images and you will be amazed... what comes out.

All good things require work, inaction is a far greater burden.

Pray to God, but row away from the rocks.

It is increasingly imperative to be creative, think outside the box...

You'll have the rest of eternity to think inside the box...

Never trade the perks of being an artist with the shallow security afforded those who work for "the man". Security is a wonderful thing, but when it comes at the price of freedom, BEWARE!!

From my friends book : PUT A CHERRY ON TOP

                                                                  The Secrets of Creating an Artful life

                                                                                                          Ben Behunin

Pain, suffering, writer's block...life goes on.

Storage shed... house not big enough...              November 2013

I heard the phone ring, saw the eyes get bigger and watched the tears flow down the face, you could almost watch the "bomb" roll in through the front door... no noise, smoke or flame, or outward physical damage... as it exploded in our home. This was all emotional...   at every basic primal level and yes it will leave an ugly internal scar. This is raw human pain that only we know how, as people, to inflict on each other. Nothing we do in this life only effects us as we  think it does, might or should, it rolls out beyond us like ripples in a pond of still water and bounces off the shore and comes back at us, painfully again, as ever. At times like this, in families, words almost become useless, because we all become numbed by the explosion of these emotional bombs. The silence becomes almost deafening as we try to regroup and gain balance. Prayer becomes solitude as we try to regain faith and hope. And try not to let the ripples get out of the house!

Better on top then behind...

Elk boys hanging on the roof... + half a deer.

First snow... hunker down & cover up boys...

Shelf assembly on the inside...

Insulation leak... weird critter...

Storage boxes... from scrap wood...

Last of the scrap wood... three boxes...

December 3 snow storm... 8-10"

Trying to clear the block...

34% left brain: Language,Rules,Details,Strategy,Rationality,Logic.

66% right brain: Chaos,Creativity,Intuition,Fantasy,Images,Curiosity.

"...every trial and experience you have passed through is necessary for your salvation."

                                                                                                                                           Brigham Young

November full moon thought...

" faith and doubt cannot exist in the same mind at the same time, for one will dispel the other. Cast out doubt, cultivate faith.                                                                      Thomas S. Monson

Will get back to shoveling snow and sewing leather bags... and push the writer's block off my desk... till then...


Cheers

Leather Bags to sew...       December 2013

Flat rock... thick brick... wooden cap... gratitude.

Self portrait in a snow storm...                                                                                                                                             11/4/2013

If it appears/sounds too good to be true... it's most likely not. Unless of course it's the Gospel of Jesus Christ... i do know the gospel is true, and that takes faith and a lot of hard work on my part, it has not become "easy" for me just yet. 

I am still gullible as to "all" of the wiles of the world. Heck i still believe what my government tells me and i work for them...
I am coming to realize that what comes through that cable into the back of my computer does not always carry the "truth", there is always someone or thing out there lurking to sell me something so they can be thankful that there's someone like me thinking about biting at their bait/offer of a "free" program... THERE IS NO FREE "LUNCH".
Gun control is hitting what ya shoot at... not how many guns ya own, or someone telling ya you can have one or not... come into my home uninvited and find out if i got one.
Frustration was the name of the game today and it took some time to work it out/off. 
Hang with the dog... good example... "lizard on a rock" therapy this morning... warm.
M&M therapy for the end of the day... all cool... along with some mindless TV.
I am thankful for the "tools" i have to work through my issues, the Gospel is a big part of that tool box. Also thankful for the skills and talents i have.

work it out... frustration gone... really!

M&M therapy... really !

Thanks for a night of rest... and day three of 21 days of gratitude... purpose of life, move forward. i have realized three passions in my life that i always move toward depending upon the time of year/season. 
                                                                                               

One: teach myself and others around me.
Two: build... art and structures, sometimes one in the same.
Three: Create... image-making, light-drawings and drawing to express ideas.
Four: i have recently discovered i must write, even thou i have kept a sketchbook/journal for years.
Then each day i must be thankful to my heavenly Father, pray, for his help and direction.
Thankfulness brings/creates blessing in my life and the lives of those around me. The Lord must be a partner in this equation. The simple act of gratitude transforms life.

hop in dude... I'm driving... really !! cool... where we going?

What is going on in this world... i don't mean the big world... but the panguitch "world"??
D&C25 : 10&13 "...lay aside the things of this world and seek for the things of a better."
"...lift up thy heart and rejoice, and cleave unto the covenants which thou has made."

Be mindful of our thoughts, words and actions every day.

be of good CHEER.

Shadows on the deck... painting with my thoughts...

Brick & Stick with it's own shadow...                                                                                                                              10/26/2013

Don't cross the blue line or you will be a painted knot... sooner then later back to the shed, after nine days back at the VC, after sixteen days of furlough and now a couple of days off, then the season shutdown... was just told this week we had a opportunity to revolt and then beg for forgiveness... but no one told me... so they went over my pay grade and got a very definite NO! It sure would have been fun to try though, sidewalk sale.

It's hard to get a shadow to hold up a stick like that... i got a trick for that.

Back wall of shed is now painted... will stand up tomorrow and start building side walls.

me & Mr. Deeks shared the last cheese burger in Panguitch today... good winter henries.

This quote bears repeating after all that's gone on the past 26 days...

"There is so much incivility in the world today...

I like the idea of our words being clear as a sunny sky and full of grace."

"Live your beliefs and you can turn the world around." David Thoreau

Therefore what manner of man ought ye/i be? Humble,obedient,healer,kind,teacher,courageous,servant,submissive,selfless,full of love.

Moroni 10:32 Yea come unto Christ, and be perfected in him...

Sat outside one aftermorning this past week... talking with visitors and sucking warmth...

bear country ... store food safely... keep camp clean... just like home...

watching mr. steller's jay dance about the front courtyard... flighty dude.

Most visitors are glad that we are back to work... and grumbling about the knot heads in Government "service"...

thanks for a vote for the frontrunner's in the trench/canyon.

Yes i do work in one of the best "trench's" in the southwest...

The polar opposite magazine Orion arrived today...

doom and gloom in regards to the world climate & cause.

The funny part is i would not choose another place to live...

this world... and i did choose to be here... has everything we all need in spite of what the save the earth people say we are doing to kill the earth...

i've had enough today, think i will come back another day and talk some more when my mind is clearandicanmakemoresenceofwhatiamtryingtothinkandsay...

seeyalaterloveyabye...   Cheers.

Is Columbus on furlough... or is it just me???

Furlough...                                                        October 1, 2013

In spite of what we do or don't do the seasons are the constant we have during this earth life. i like the constant of the seasonal change that goes on no matter what we do... i for the most part like the adjustments we have to make to get things done... sometimes having to hurry to get "it" done and other times having to be patient and wait to complete the "it" task.
There is always someone or thing that wants to throw a wrench into the works just to get your/my attention and remind us whom "they" think is in control. These kinds of things remind me lately of the Lords conversation with Joseph Smith in D&C 3:6-8. i/we must remember, God is merciful, he does not walk in crooked paths, it is not the work of God that is frustrated, but the work of men. i can see this every day, and i struggle very hard to put my faith and trust in God.

The long & short of it...                                                                       10/9/2013

At the same time i refuse to become paranoid and obsessed with what is going on in this country and the world because; i believe God does NOT vary from that which he does and says he will do. 

Homework to still get done...
furlough has given me that time...
Columbus day today... 1492 he sailed the sea of blue...
blue is gaining over the gray skies of this day...
the foundation of the shed is complete... now the shed to assemble...
i am not the strong fast carpenter i use to was... so i take more time to catch my breath and sit and think about what to do next... instead of racing to the finish as i did in my youth.
The "boys of ^%" are still in hot pursuit... they are still a long ways off and don't want to come to Panguitch to share their stories... and this "face book" thing still baffles me more... people from my past with... idon'tknowwhat... but it mattereth not; i am not angry, but do rejoice in the greatness of their hearts...(Alma61:9). i must be patient to become friends with them again... and learn to love them again. 
Well back to the issue at hand get the shed build and move the stuff out the garage... press on.      CHEERs

Out with the trash... and the washington politicians.

Out with the trash...                                                                 2013

Some times ya just got to pull to the side of the road and let the "trash" have the right of way...
it makes lots of sense to me that ya furlough the folks that do the work and keep the "wigs"...
if i did my federal job the way washington does their federal job i would get promoted to washington.

that's ok with me "boys" i can understand protecting job security, keep the country in chaos and...
you always got some thing to do that you don't have to explain to no one, cause you the boss...
just beware if we the people can elect ya... we the people can also un-elect you... you can run but...

now you got me at home, and i have plenty to do, filed for unemployment, and can't even file...
cause you might pay me for not working... now i feel like an american farmer... pay for no grow...
IF i do get paid for no-work and collect unemployment... i have to pay it back X two!!

You clowns can't even play ping-pong good... i can't play at all... but ya sure know how to screw...
with the american federal work force and visiting public, both foreign and domestic, and expect me...
to explain it to them using your correct barricade mambo-jumbo who knows what language... blah!

i closed down my duty station... and there were so many people in the parking lot that as i departed...
i felt like i was "running away"... i was hired to serve the visiting public... and i felt ashamed...
of what a politician required me to do... i felt manipulated in a very devious way.

I don't like being your ping-pong balls... just cause you got none of your own... come on down and do your own dirty work... and explain it to the people... the "principal" your trying to teach/enforce by ramming it up my butt... you are nothing but pompous overpaid asses... and extremely self-important nothings.

Sorry for my venting rant... no i am not sorry cause there are too many "sorry" people in this country.
click on this and  rock on and enjoy...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z4S71tGcJ_w&feature=player_embedded#t=3

CHEERS

the clouds are back...

Hay down clouds up...                                                                                                                                                         9/21/2013

After a week of clear blue sunny skies... there back... love it
watching the desert dry out faster then it took to get wet...
can't fix the washed out roads as fast as it took to wash them away...

The great dryer is here also... wind... fast moving clouds all day long...
dog out... harvest beans... turning off cold tomorrow... 
garden, grass, tree eater... neighbor goat in our yard... escorted off...

Brides bandages come off repaired knee... iceman... walking without crutches...
all work done through three small holes... can now shower without a bag...
32mph and that's just the wind...clearing my desk... post office with deeks...

Table with marble top down stairs... it will rise again... out of everyday sight...
nap on the couch listening to a motorcycle rebuild... third day RS food...
thank you... says a lot about who you are... sunset red-pink on gray clouds...

Fragmented sentences are like... photo snap shots...
all the result of my random access mind/memory...
using various triggers... words, images, thoughts etc...

"in essentials, unity...
in non-essentials, liberty...
in both, charity."

Here is a piece of music i came across a week or so back... click the link and enjoy...
http://www.npr.org/event/music/217277491/anna-von-hausswolff-finds-a-pipe-organ-in-new-york-city 

Cheers

on my mark... get set... busy on.

Monsoon on to September...                                                                                                                                                 9/6/2013

It's been a wet season... wetter then i have seen in these parts, and looking at the weather maps there is lots more out there, the Pacific Ocean, streaming our way... so keep it a coming... we always need some good wet weather. These greyongray days are cool and we really have some humidity this year. The skies are not the blue canvas  they have been in years past, the cloud shows have been wonder-filled and always changing all day long. The Visitor Center has had a dip in visitors the past two weeks but i believe that most of the kids have returned to school so the grandparents are heading for home and shopping for the big red & green holiday at the end of the year... so the numbers are starting to pick back up. The year end volunteer lunch and dinner thank you's are here this week and we are starting to scramble for help to keep the center open... we shut the doors on Monday October 28th this season, then shut-up for five months... ahh no talking!!
But we got to get through September first, the busiest month of the season!! The best time of year to be in southern Utah... Sept-Oct, yes a little wetter this year but good hiking weather none the less... cool mornings warm mid-day cool evenings and it will be greener and the rabbitbrush is just now coming on to blooming, the edges of the roadways are yellow.

Rainwater run-off stripes...                                                                      9/6/2013

New landscape patterns we see
gray on grey clouds building...
Wash runnings, wall to wall.

Gray clouds blooming... lightning...
treat for the dog... thunder rolling...
pull weeds, harvest peas & beans... rain.

Me & dog ride around the outside of town...
share leftover bag of Cheetos, yellow/orange lips...
wipers slapping time too falling rain.

Red rash right foot between 4&5...
holiday after hours hospital ER...
home for garden supper potatoes & peas.



Why does primitive man Dream... and modern man Imagines...??

Back into the canyon, white clouds gray bottoms...
medical issues volunteers departing Friday, scramble...
nice evening no rain... colorful sunset... boring tv... sleep.

Cloudy morning... dog out... yellow sunrise...
talk with God... read Alma 46...dress toes...
!DENTIST! mouth full of x-rays... glow for the day.

Things were developing... nothing blurring...
boring wallpaper... ugly picture... inside a box...
spring, teeth out... months no teeth... new teeth.

Dough-nut thursday... new red canyon tote... recycled bottles...
intriguing couple in VC... great spirits... high $$$$ cameras... 
rain after dark... new music "Ceremony" Anna von Hauswolff.

Dark gray cloud over VC... volunteers last work day...
lunch at pines... say see ya later... pie first then food...
see the doctor about 4&5... cream and powder... walk on.

Prep sheet done... drivers license form done and mailed...
leave town for the rest of the day... first time in months...
cedar city... food... shop... washer and dryer, home depot.

West tunnel, red canyon...                                           9/6/2013

Church meetings... sow & reap... Alma24:7
journey/journal... write and keep records...
improve that which you have been given.

Gray clouds... rain... read to sleep... nap...
rain after dark... hundreds of flies on window screen...
always me... glad that weeks done...whew!

Fs office... email... timesheet... weekly report...
brief/up-date the new/old boss... up and speeding...
kick off shoes... powder feet... lunch & hunt and peck.

Well that's about it for this time around, the busy is coming, less hours per day but more days per week for the next two months. Will try to get back as soon as time allows... maybe some short blasts with more images then wordstheniwillrunallthewordstogethertosavespaceanditwilltakeyoulongertoreadanicangolongerwithoutwriting. wow!! that mightbe afunidea ya know?!

Well here's to the "boys of ^%" if ya checked in welcome... to my world... maybe see ya in '14. Hwy.12 in southern Utah is the #2 best scenic drive in the world!!! come drive this one first and see if ya want to spend those big bucks to drive #1 in New Zealand?? i think not. Stop listening to pres. O man's hyperbole and the beating of his "dead horse" war drum... according to my numbers and talking to the Americans traveling they are sick of listening and are out seeing this great country!! (Sojourns 8:2 summer + fall 2013 is out... come have your eyes opened by the awesome spectacle of the national parks on the Colorado Plateau... and if you don't have your "old farts pass", excuse me... senior pass, and you are all old enough, ten bucks at any national park, and its good for the rest of your life... free entrance to all National Parks in the entire United States of America! 

CHEERS

Bright... rain... heart & rainbows.

Bright spot... wildflower garden...                                                Summer 2013

The wildflower garden is in it's top glory right now...
it's been a wet monsoon season this year...
the home garden has been roaring and still going...
just picked a hand-full of green beans this morning, as the dog nosed about in the yard...
major rain up on the plateau at dave's hollow... pasture flooded and flowing over the road... Volunteers safe and got out this morning to work at the VC... the OMG weekend got too much rain and washed out their gathering, they must be a "fair weather" MG. i remember back in my motorcycle riding days... riding in the rain was ok if you were heading home a short distance and you got "surface wet"... but if you had a long way to go and had to keep riding the tough spot was between "surface wet" and "wet to the bone"... once ya got "wet to the bone" you could not get any wetter... sooo it got easier again to ride on, for me. This was riding late 60's early 70's in southern California as a young man. Don't know i could do that today... and i am sure i don't want to try! but    "...every trial and experience you have passed through is necessary for your salvation." Brigham Young.

don't litter... turn left...                                                                      August 2013

Even the ATV folks got mostly rained out this year... ya can't take the mud home with ya so don't ride. We look forward to all the rain we can get, whenever we get it, so don't look for us to feel sorry for ya when your here and it rains!

Partly cloudy, yellow/gold sunrise
fs office, truck, fuel, grocery, canyon
Borne Upon Eagles Wings, Elder Holland 1974.

New twinkies for lunch, grasshoppers mo-better
heavy rain in canyon , wash running walltowall
home to panguitch, rainbow to the east.

Dough-nut thursday red canyon, wash normal
home to panguitch, supper, crapTV, usual ssdd
brits, good show, nosupport ustowar, sorry pres.

Putt's granary/shed...                                                                         09/01/2013

The old shed that Grandpa H. Sevy dragged onto the home property years ago... lots of "good" old used rusted memories from the past may soon be going the way of the past... grandma wanted to burn the "damn thing" down!!... didn't happen. i wanted to put a corrugated iron roof on it and save it... not going to happen!! Someone has now been given the OK too... haul away all the "junk" inside it and tear the rest down for the usable wood that it's made of... well have a good last look... cause now there will soon be another "hole" in Panguitch where Putt's shed use to be. It just won't be the same cooking tin foil dinners with an open fire on a bed of hot coals with the shed to wander through as dinner cooked... indigestion comes in many forms... no heartburn RX will help this... the passing on of a man-made scenario.

We must learn to learn from those who came before us, either before they go or by what they leave behind for us to look at and learn from.

Bloody hand prints all over a G washington bill...

drive the canyon after running wash yesterday... OK

hang out doing the front desk dance... good morning!

56 and mostly cloudy, grey on gray...

dealing with the "boys of '65"... prep sheet done...

smell the wildflowers and the new mowed lawn.

A star and leaf for the september symbol, busy coming...

dave's hollow road wash over... pasture full...

up-date on current collage education... so far... good.

All looks good from here...                                                               09/02/2013

Man can become an instrument in the Lord's hand... guided and directed... choose early... don't delay... tag your it!!

The rains of this season remind me of Guam MI, '68-'69, again my youth as a Navel enlisted man... other stories other days... The "light" on Guam in Micronesia vs. the "light" in Southern Utah in USA is much different... but the gospel in both places is the same, TRUE.

Have a story... write it to tell it bits and pieces.

This week i will transition into a new sketchbook/journal... close out the old and file away under the desk and confront a whole new book full of blank pages, no lines... it's like taking the dog outside and unhooking his leash... the freedom to go where he/you/i will...

Here's to the sojourn... and that itchy feeling of something new coming about... whatever that might be... 

remember Brigham above... write-on!

                                                                                   CHEERS 

zits... journals... climate weather... '65 and beyond.

Weather or not... TS Ivo...                                                           August 2013

 Post #30 yesterday... lets see the best way to explain that one... oh wait i got it... it was like a blackhead/zit on my face that i just noticed/saw, so yes i was looking in the mirror, an i had to squeeze it right then and get it out... (-:    yes it was a big one and it left a hole, or enlarged pore, but its gone and i look and feel much better. Venting is such great relief... it's gone done and over with... move on, get a life and stop whinging and get on with it. 

"Those of us that keep a book of remembrance are more likely to keep the Lord in remembrance in our daily lives... a journal is a way of counting our blessings and leaving an inventory of those blessing for our posterity." 
President Spencer W. Kimball

Keeping a journal is a great daily tool, write/draw thoughts, ideas, events, and insights of the day, you can forget it, free brain space, and come back reread, write more and remember without encumbering all those brain cells, along with keeping an active engaged mind... and who knows where that might lead. 
Live simply, love generously, care deeply, give fully!!!!
What a great monsoon season we are having... the daily cloud shows are breath taking... i love this time of year, and we have been getting a fair amount of moisture this season. Concern about climate change "gives an excuse by government to control human activity, meaning our lives and our freedoms." Climate change has been going on for hundreds and thousands of years, cycle after cycle, it's not all humanities fault, even the science guys can't agree on whats happening. "You can't affect global warming simply by buying a Prius and adjusting the thermostat." Spend $$$$ in the "right" way and get a warm fuzzy feeling that ya done something good... yup put $$$$ in someone else's pocket!

Sharpen-up...                                                                                      August 2013

Well the "Boys of 65" are after me again... my fifty year HS graduation is coming up in 2015. so far i have stayed under the radar, a few know where i'm at but i am now trying to get them away from my Gov. email and computer system... no reason to give the NSA an interest or fodder... ya know what can happen when a group of retired b-boomers get cut loose from full time work and have no daze-off (-: !! any how aim high and shoot low, no body parts above my head. Besides i don't know that i want to relive those southern California HS days... after all it was "high school" and i did not much care for "school" in those days, except playing football, and i got a new right knee three years back for that experience. Its too crowded down there, and it's not what it was in the "old" days, '55-'70, then i moved north to the Bay Area to go to school again, this time cause i wanted too...  and then got sucked east through Sacramento and on into Southern Utah. So much for the life-line travel log... being a gypsy has been fun, something i got from my military Father and our family... south east to north east, west then north then east then east again to Utah. In between all that a hitch in the Navy took me in circles in both the Pacific and Atlantic oceans. What a long strange trip it's been... dude who'd o' guessed ?

"There is no such thing as im-material matter. All spirit is matter, but it is more fine or pure, and can only be discerned by purer eyes; We cannot see it; but when our bodies are purified we shall see that it is all matter,"  D&C 131:7-8 

Light
Outside bright white sunlight, curtains on windows...
grey filtered sunlight... gray filtered sunlight... 
bright white electric light inside the house of the Lord.

Obtain... education/knowledge... always
we become older weather education or not...
just living this life/test is an education.

Yellowstone...                                                       October 2012

No dragging fish water about the yard this monday... rained all night, most of the morning and some this afternoon... wet.
From post #30: not sure what M&M logic is... but M&M therapy is: one hand full out on the desk... three at a time into mouth, not the same color... suck and allow to melt hard shell, guess the colors... enjoy the slight bitter taste... dream and repeat as needed.
This world is a great place... don't get caught up in it... you only get this experience once use it wisely and well.

Richard!! supper's ready... Yes.

CHEERS